Unbearable

Pain unbearable.............

My heart pleads

But you are not ready to listen

that i value you

not ready to listen

that you have become my breath

too proud to understand

too ignorant

I`v brought pain in to me myself

Chaos and heartache linked hand in hand

Ripping my heart in to pieces

Eyes sore with tears

Tired with misery

Waiting for the happiness

I used to have within me

The calm and beauty i brought 

to my life and to my loved ones`s

Will no longer be the same.

I wont be the same

Just as a prisoner who cannot forget the past

Its only necessity now to survive

for the sake of others

Seeing ahead

If no threads of even shredded understanding
pulls me to the life which i used to love..
And the ahead seems to loom ahead
When the mind is trapped in a whirl of emotions
where consciousness seems afar
Decisions may waver

Mind unstable...
Thoughts bitter, words harsh...
Eyes tear..,
Forehead creased
when random empty thoughts
creeps and tangles the mind

The love stands longing..